There are three kinds of men in my life; The idealistic man, the guys I think I should like but don't, and the guys who for reasons completely beyond logic I can't stop loving. The first of these I have not met, but is constantly in my life because I am trying to figure out who he is. The second one speaks for itself, I don't like them although I think I should (logically speaking). And the third one has come around only once, he was 400lbs, kind of greasy, didn't do well in school and GAY. So that one also speaks for itself.
The thing is, who I want to love and who I actually do love are two completely different people. Love is not just blind, it's deaf and dumb too! The guy that made me smile uncontrollably and whose presence lit up my life was not the guy I needed to (or could) be in a relationship with. Maybe it was his personality, I have no idea.
I've often tried to attack love with logic, but logic never wins. Love is stronger, faster, and attacks when you least expect it. I guess I just keep forgetting how illogical everything felt when I sat next to the fat, gay guy that I loved so outrageously much (until I found out that he was gay and gave up). I still kind of hold out that love can be analyzed and that logic has a chance at fighting it when love proves to be blind, deaf and dumb. But even a blind, deaf and dumb love can take out logic any day.
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Hi there. I lost this post its so true.
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You're right--logic NEVER wins. You simply cannot make yourself like or not like someone! Either you do or you don't. You don't really control your feelings--all you can control is your response to them.